I wasn't going to make this a blog post, but as I've tried to work through this over the past few weeks, it's become really clear that I need to. One, because this blog is where I figure life out. This is where I go to share what I'm going through and work through it. Also, since getting this news I've sat down to write about other things, regularly scheduled content, and it just didn't feel important. This is all I've wanted to write about. And lastly, I've been searching the internet trying to find someone, anyone, to tell me it was ok to feel the way I feel and…