Life
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Why Tickle? The Story Behind the Name
A month ago, today, I had to say goodbye to my furbaby, my best friend, my Tickle. It's been a rough month and everything about this still really hurts. As with any grief, I have my good days, my not-so-good days, and my really rough days. Even though today should be a rough day (I anticipated that it would be), I'm actually doing ok (for now). Every day I'm trying my best to focus on how lucky I was to have such a good girl in my life and all the great memories I have with her, instead of how much it hurts that she's gone. To continue riding that…
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The Silence – Saying Goodbye and Learning How to Live without my Best Friend
Today is Father's Day, a tough day in general for me. I didn't want to publish this today, but this day is now hard for two reasons. One because I miss my dad, but two because this is the first "sad" holiday I have to get through without Tickle. Tickle not only got me through the hardest times, but she also got me through the reminders of the hard times, birthdays, and special holidays for loved ones who passed. Not only am I having to learn how to get through death without Tickle, I'm also going to have to learn to get through the hard days without her.
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I Quit My Job!
April ended up being an overly hectic month, kicked off with a car accident along with some other things, so I do have to sadly report that I haven't been able to grow any further than I was in March. But the year isn't even halfway over yet and I've already accomplished more than I expected to do this entire year. If you would have asked me back in January where I see myself in six months I would have never guessed I'd be happily working from home, making my own hours. I still need to hustle, I still have a lot of plans, and I still have a long…
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I’m scared. I’m angry. And I’m overwhelmed.
Like a lot of women in this country, I have been walking around in a weird, shocked, angry cloud, filled with hours of news watching, Twitter scrolling, and Reddit reading. Although I actually had a lot planned for my blog this week, I've realized that I can't get anything done until I get all of this *waves hands around head* out. So, I am going to try to put into words what I've been going through and what's been on my mind for the past few days. This is probably going to be rambly and possibly not make much sense, but I've got to put this all somewhere. And when…
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30 “Things” That Made My 30th Year
Tomorrow I turn 31 and well the first chapter of my 30s was not all that I had imagined. I didn't accomplish as much as I hoped. Most of the positive, healthy habits I set out to establish eventually fell through. And I ultimately spent a lot of the year lost, frustrated, and sad. But this is a new year, the start of another trip around the sun and an opportunity to try to do things better, again.
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2022 – New Year Means New Years Resolutions
I spent a lot of 2021 upset about where I was (am) in life and was too scared to actually make any changes. I spent all of 2021 thinking about the life I wanted and the changes I could make to get that life, while ultimately doing very little about it. I was so afraid of making a move or taking a risk that could fail, that I did nothing for most of the year. I don't want that to happen this year.
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I Went Back To School
This summer I enrolled at Mt. SAC in two different classes. I enrolled, with my husband in an agriculture class, Food Production, Land Use, and Politics - A Global Perspective. Having my husband take that class with me was a total lifesaver, but more on that later. I also enrolled in Real Estate Principles, one of the required classes to get your real estate license here in California.
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My New Job Made Me Hate Myself
Everyday that I came home from work I couldn't stop the thoughts running through my head like, "You're going to turn 30, broke and working at ###." or "You're almost 30 and you already failed at your career." or worse, "So what good is your college degree?" Taking this job, this job that I desperately needed left me feeling like the biggest loser ever and I hated that. I wanted to be proud that I was working, that I was figuring out a way to get by, but all I could think about was how it wasn't supposed to be that way.
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Turning 30: The Start of a New Year, a New Decade and a New Chapter
Like I do every year, I am ready to outline my goals, my resolutions if you will, for this next year. However, since this isn't just any birthday, it's, as I've been annoyingly saying, the start of a new chapter for me and there is a lot I hope to change and do moving forward not just this year, but in general.
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Turning 30: Looking at my 20s Through a Positive Lens
I turn 30 in just a couple days and I don't remember ever being this excited for a birthday. I turned 18 in high school, early in my senior year, so very little changed there. At 21 I had very little interest in alcohol, so that was no big achievement. And at 25 I was excited to be able to rent a car, but who really thinks about that? But 30, 30 feels different. I have been excited to turn 30 since last year and even though COVID is throwing a wrench into many of my celebration plans, that doesn't change how thrilled I am to be leaving my 20s…
