• The Other Stuff

    Reminder to Believe in Myself

    Today marks five years exactly since I got on a plane and moved to Hawaii. I've talked about that experience many times on this blog, but today's anniversary hit different. Today's anniversary was a perfectly timed message from the universe. Today reminded me that I'm amazing and I can accomplish impossible things. And I really needed that.

  • Life

    “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?” – Why I HATE This Question

    Like many people, I currently find myself unemployed and that means it's interview time, again. And with the way the last few years have been, it feels like this has been the season of interviews in my life. From being laid off with only a year left on Oahu, to trying to settle back into life in California, and now COVID, I should be a pro when it comes to interviews and job hunting. In many ways I guess I kind of am. Not to say I'm good at interviews, but very rarely am I surprised by a question or the flow of an interview. I'm so used to hearing…

  • The Other Stuff

    Helping Others to Avoid Chasing my Dreams

    I always spend a lot of time thinking about life and my goals and why things are the way they are. Why I act the way I act or do the things I do? Driving home tonight, I was listening to the Titus Podcast, as I do pretty much every Friday night, and tonight they were talking about reaching your goals and chasing your dream. Not a hard topic for me to get into, especially when its framed in a dark snarky way, as is everything Titus talks about

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    Moving to Oahu

    September 25, 2015 I got on a plane in LAX headed for Honolulu. The previous months had consisted of a lot of couch surfing, living with different friends and family, and a two month stay in Utah. I had less than $3,000, an Airbnb studio apartment covered for a month, no job, and pretty much no plan. I had spent my entire life living in California. Despite having graduated from college in May of 2014, I still had not worked a “real” job and with the exception of my adventures in couch surfing, I had never lived on my own. I had never been on a plane and the farthest…

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    Time to Jump

    In the months prior to me moving to Hawaii, I started having this vision or day dream or dream…I’m not really sure waht I’d call it, but this scene was in my head constantly. Here’s the scene: It was me, standing on the edge of a rock or a cliff or a waterfall. It was always something high and above a body of water. I would close my eyes, take a deep breath, take one step back and then I would jump. The thing with these, I’ll call them visions, was they always stopped at different moments. Sometimes after I would hit the water. Sometimes right after I stepped off…

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    What the F**K am I doing?

    That is a very good question and I honestly wish I had the answer. I’ve always been a writer. I have always loved writing stories and poems. I’ve always had a love affair with words. I obsess over song lyrics and movie dialogue. I also love photography and videography. I love telling stories and creating things, but I’ve never given myself the opportunity to fully pursue those passions. That is until now. In college I studied both photography and journalism, but ultimately abandoned them for what I thought was a more clear career path. I’ve always dreamed of writing a book, but I’ve never gotten beyond short stories. I’ve had…