• The Other Stuff

    Helping Others to Avoid Chasing my Dreams

    I always spend a lot of time thinking about life and my goals and why things are the way they are. Why I act the way I act or do the things I do? Driving home tonight, I was listening to the Titus Podcast, as I do pretty much every Friday night, and tonight they were talking about reaching your goals and chasing your dream. Not a hard topic for me to get into, especially when its framed in a dark snarky way, as is everything Titus talks about

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    Life

    Turning 29 – Goals

    Most years rather than making a list of New Year's resolutions, I make birthday goals - things I want to do, improve upon and change for the year to come. My birthday is so close to New Year's anyways, that I always feel like it's pointless to make any eating right and/or working out goals, because I know as soon as my birthday week rolls around all my progress is going to be derailed.

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    Anxiety and Negative Self-Talk in the New Year

    Going into 2020 I had all these plans, just like everyone else, for the new and improved me. I was going to workout more and eat better. Save money. Eat out less. Start reading again. Stay on top of my blog post and make better content. Embark on all those projects I keep saying I'm going to do, but never even start.

  • Life

    Moving to Oahu

    September 25, 2015 I got on a plane in LAX headed for Honolulu. The previous months had consisted of a lot of couch surfing, living with different friends and family, and a two month stay in Utah. I had less than $3,000, an Airbnb studio apartment covered for a month, no job, and pretty much no plan. I had spent my entire life living in California. Despite having graduated from college in May of 2014, I still had not worked a “real” job and with the exception of my adventures in couch surfing, I had never lived on my own. I had never been on a plane and the farthest…

  • Life

    Time to Jump

    In the months prior to me moving to Hawaii, I started having this vision or day dream or dream…I’m not really sure waht I’d call it, but this scene was in my head constantly. Here’s the scene: It was me, standing on the edge of a rock or a cliff or a waterfall. It was always something high and above a body of water. I would close my eyes, take a deep breath, take one step back and then I would jump. The thing with these, I’ll call them visions, was they always stopped at different moments. Sometimes after I would hit the water. Sometimes right after I stepped off…

  • Life

    What the F**K am I doing?

    That is a very good question and I honestly wish I had the answer. I’ve always been a writer. I have always loved writing stories and poems. I’ve always had a love affair with words. I obsess over song lyrics and movie dialogue. I also love photography and videography. I love telling stories and creating things, but I’ve never given myself the opportunity to fully pursue those passions. That is until now. In college I studied both photography and journalism, but ultimately abandoned them for what I thought was a more clear career path. I’ve always dreamed of writing a book, but I’ve never gotten beyond short stories. I’ve had…